one thing i can promise....

is that me and my ex will always be friends. i know some of my friends are concern whether this is a good idea of becoming friends with him because most of them are afraid that i won't be able move on or forget him or something like that. but i think (at least,i hope so), i know myself well enough that i can go on without him. yes, it is true that i'm still heartbroken on what happen to us but i also know that he and i can never be together ever again. there are too many obstacles to face, too many mistakes have been made over and over again and too many excuses that is unacceptable and in the end, it is just not worth the wait anymore.

even so i am one heartbroken woman (i'm a woman?), but knowing that i can never be together with him is a process to recover from my dullness(as my friend put it). but i do believe just because he and i can't be together, that doesn't mean we both cant become friends. i know it will be hard. and it would definitely extremely painful, but i am sure in time, all that will be put behind both of us. i promised him years ago that if we won't be together, i will always be his best friend. and i intend to keep it. but of course, i can't do this alone. i need supports from my friends for this thing to work. you all have supported me through all this and this time, i also hope all of you support my decision to be friends with him.

i really do appreciate all of your supports and encouragements. thank you so much everyone.

for my ex.... and also my best friend, this one is for you:

i will always be with you
makes no difference where you road takes you to
even if we're apart
now we're join at the path
though our moment maybe gone
you and i will still live on

i will always be with you
i'll be by your side what ever you do
other memories may fade
but the ones that we made
are eternal as a star
now i'm part of who you are

and i'll be there with you
in the sound of your laughter
i'll be in the tears you cry
cause the way you and i
have touched one and other
doesn't end with goodbye

i will always be with you
like a guardian angel, constant and true
when you're lost in the night
and you can't see the light
my love will see you through

i will always be there
you have me there
i will always be with you

-sheena easton-