friend is okay too....

for 2 days now i've been talking to my ex. its nothing like before though. before we talked almost all the time. but this time its more like just an hour or 2 or probably less. but anyway, the point is, we talked.

the first time it was kinda hard. there was still hurt there a little bit....okay...a lot, and i was kinda hesitant whether to talk to him or not. i felt like i wasn't ready to talk to him. i was actually scared i was gonna cry my eyes out n start saying something that i would regret later on.

but in the end it turn out alright i think. the first time was a bit awkward and there was still anger there and sadness, but it was okay. the second conversation we had (just now actually), it was much better than okay. it wasn't cheerful but it was much better than the first one (i think).

all this time i was scared that we both might end up not talking with each other because we were too nervous or don't have the nerve to speak to each other again was totally wrong. there is still inside of me still kinda nervous talking to me but im sure time will healed that as well as my heart too. which im sure gonna take much longer time.

so i guess, being friends is quite.....okay. hard.....but okay.