i think a lot of people know about giving up. you going gets tough, when you know you are at the end of the line and there is nothing else you can do, you just give up. because you know you can't do anything about it at all. there is no changing it or anything at all. but i know some of you didn't just give up. some of you work so hard to find the solution and try to make it better. make everything better. or at least try to sort things out.
as for me, i don't know if i am already giving up or still fighting or what. i guess i am still torn in between. on the other hand is to just give up and end everything and on another hand is to move on and try to get better again, which i am still trying to figure out how.
there is one quote of encouragement that i know. "when you feel like giving up, just remember why you held on for so long in the first place". which i find extremely funny in a way, because i have no idea why did i stand all this long in the first place. well i do know why did hold so long with my bf (my ex now) even though we went through hell and back again. just one reason. LOVE. that's why i hold on for so long, just keep on holding and holding and holding. okay, that one i understand.
but this one i don't understand really. heartbreak or suffering or pain. why should i held so long? why should i stand my ground and keep on moving? is there a point? is there a reason? why shouldn't i just let everything go? just....leave? hmm..... i guess writing this blog does help me thinks. i think i forgot one think that i hold so dear, that EVERYTHING HAPPENS FOR A REASON.
yeah, its true. everything happens for a reason. and yes now , i have to go through all this crap and i think it will be a while but im sure there must be a reason, a good reason why i have to go through all this. so i guess i shouldn't be giving so soon aren't i? so i guess i just have to hold on just a little bit longer until i finds out the brighter side of it.
can i just fast forward to happily ever after? i hate waiting.
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