it always come back to outside that counts.

you know, way way way back then, i always thought that men are shallow beings. i always thought that they prefer a tall, hot, sexy, fair and skinny woman. but after i got together with my boyfriend(back then), i kinda changed my views on them a little bit.

but after my break up, i decided that its time to talk to other people. well i can talk to other people in this reality but since i cant go out with my broken leg, so i guess chatting in the cyber world is all i got. and yes, i just cant sit on my own. i need someone to talk to since i love talking so much and no, i can't talk on the phone with my friends because the bill will go up like crazy since i can talk for hours and hours.

anyway, i haven't go to any chat rooms for years now. i think about 3 or 4 years and it definitely has changed a lot. back then, people you know talked to one another and there are not so much trashing like what they like to do now. back then, people really do want to talk to you, but now everyone just want to get "something". its like if you don't have a cam or any pictures, they won't talk to you at all. it wasn't a problem back then though. i thought that is what chat rooms are all about. to talk. and to get to know each other. it's like a license or something. no camera and no pictures, you won't be talking to me, young lady.

and to make matter worst, if they don't like the picture, they won't be talking to you at all. what a load of crap! so basically, you have to be all nice and pretty and sexy to talk to all these men and women. yes, i know they are entitle to do anything that want but does it matter how a person looks like when you wanna talk to him/her? if so, that is kinda like discrimination. what a douche!

maybe because some......okay...most of these men, not looking for a chat.some of them are looking something more...."intimate" if you know what i mean. which i have to say, definitely gross. i have nothing against cyber sex, but i do have problem with cyber sex with a stranger. that is just plain..... disgusting. i guess that's why they want to look at you in the first place. if they don't like what they see, they took off which pretty much saying, "you're ugly and there is no way i'm gonna do with you".

which pretty much proves  my assumption way back then that men...okay...SOME men are a very shallow minded beings. how sad. just when i was about to change my views, you just proves me right all along. bravo!