i know people say that "time will heal your wound" and sort of stuff, but i wonder how long will it takes? a friend of mine said around 3 months tops. another said, 6 months. but honestly, i really really wish that these feelings of hurt.... loneliness.... betrayed.... and so much more will pass sooner than 3 months. even though its only been a week but it already feels like a lifetime. it feels like its tormenting me. i hate it so much. why all these feelings tormenting me?
i already ran out tears to cry anymore. i wanna cry so bad and just scream out loud but there are no more tears and my voice seems so quit on me too (but i can still talk).
even though i am feeling like i wanna commit suicide or jump in front of a bus or jump from a tall building, i know it wont accomplish anything. i know it will only brings more sadness to my family and friends. i guess i am truly alone isn't it? if i wanna be sad and depress, why should i even bother telling everyone about it? didn't they have their own problem to solve in a first place?
i don't know. i guess i am still a mess. my mind is still blurry and i think i still find it hard to believe that there is no "we" anymore. there is only "i" or "me".
i wonder when i can say "we" again?
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